Lately my motivation has been lacking. This could be due to the fact that my kids have been waking up before 5am each day. And sometimes I can't take a nap! For instance, today I just kept thinking of things I should do: clean the bathroom, start dinner, etc. A few months ago I quit the caffeine, but here I am again, craving it every day. Today it only boosted me up in the morning. It's 3 o'clock and I'm exhausted with a dirty bathroom and no dinner started, and I hear Joshua waking up already. At times like this I need to think of what I've already accomplished today:
-Went to the gym this morning
-Went to new playgroup at a new play area
-Met Jeremy for lunch
-Clipped Joshua's fingernails
-Swept outside patio
Well that is kind of a lot. And I was up at 4am this morning. I need to go to bed early tonight!
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Staying Home
I remember when Jeremy and I made the decision I was going to stay at home. I was 5 months pregnant with Joshua and we were visiting Jeremy's family in Moreno Valley during the first week of December 2007. We went out to lunch (or was it dinner?) at BJ's brewery while my in-laws watched Zachary.
I had always secretly wanted to be a stay at home mom. Especially since Zachary was born and I was dealing with inflexible work schedules, daycare, commutes, and an often sick baby. I just thought it would never be possible since we had just bought our first house and had our first mortgage. I think I was too afraid to tell Jeremy how badly I wanted to be at home since at one point we had decided I would work because it just made sense financially.
Jeremy had just started his new job at SWD and we were discussing our finances and how, for the first time in a few years, we had plenty of money. We were also facing Zachary's second surgery in less than 2 years for all of the ear infections he picked up at daycare. At daycare Zachary seemed to pick up every germ -- and passed it on to me! We didn't know how we would afford 2 children in daycare. It would have eaten up half of my take-home pay.
My original plan (born out of desperation since I was SO unhappy in my job) was to work as hard as possible to lose the weight after I had Joshua by joining Weight Watchers, and then search for a new job. I just didn't know how I would handle 2 kids in daycare, working full time, and job-hunting.
He looked at me across the table and said, "Would you want to stay home?" Would I? Would I? In a heartbeat! I believe the conversation at the time had to do with neither of us being able to take time off of work to take Zachary to the Dr. And so we planned that I would give my notice after my maternity leave with Joshua in order to maximize my health coverage. What we didn't realize was that Jeremy's health coverage would end up being the best we've ever had. I put a countdown to my last day of work on my calendar. Finally there was an end in sight to my crazy boss, insensitive coworkers, and unstable company. Proving that this was meant to be, I was laid off February 1st, 2008, allowing me to spend 2 extra months with Zachary and guaranteeing me unemployment income to help our transition to one income.
I had always secretly wanted to be a stay at home mom. Especially since Zachary was born and I was dealing with inflexible work schedules, daycare, commutes, and an often sick baby. I just thought it would never be possible since we had just bought our first house and had our first mortgage. I think I was too afraid to tell Jeremy how badly I wanted to be at home since at one point we had decided I would work because it just made sense financially.
Jeremy had just started his new job at SWD and we were discussing our finances and how, for the first time in a few years, we had plenty of money. We were also facing Zachary's second surgery in less than 2 years for all of the ear infections he picked up at daycare. At daycare Zachary seemed to pick up every germ -- and passed it on to me! We didn't know how we would afford 2 children in daycare. It would have eaten up half of my take-home pay.
My original plan (born out of desperation since I was SO unhappy in my job) was to work as hard as possible to lose the weight after I had Joshua by joining Weight Watchers, and then search for a new job. I just didn't know how I would handle 2 kids in daycare, working full time, and job-hunting.
He looked at me across the table and said, "Would you want to stay home?" Would I? Would I? In a heartbeat! I believe the conversation at the time had to do with neither of us being able to take time off of work to take Zachary to the Dr. And so we planned that I would give my notice after my maternity leave with Joshua in order to maximize my health coverage. What we didn't realize was that Jeremy's health coverage would end up being the best we've ever had. I put a countdown to my last day of work on my calendar. Finally there was an end in sight to my crazy boss, insensitive coworkers, and unstable company. Proving that this was meant to be, I was laid off February 1st, 2008, allowing me to spend 2 extra months with Zachary and guaranteeing me unemployment income to help our transition to one income.
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